[2006-12-31 - 1:51 p.m.]

i really miss you right now.

i'm convinced that, because i did not allow myself to cry (because for some reason i found that to be the pathetic route), i cannot let this go as easily as i had expected i could.

it's bothering & bothering & bothering me.

& i wish i were going up to louisville tonight. just to see him. so that maybe, when the ball drops, i could kiss you & we could try this again?

i really am pathetic.